I’ve been talking about leaving my job.. the one that wasn’t fulfilling me for a while now.
And well… I actually did it.
It’s been 6 weeks since I left my job.
Like… I really left.
FINALLY.
And even though a part of me feels free, lighter, and more like myself…
there’s also a part of me that still doesn’t fully know what I want to do next.
And honestly? I’m learning to be okay with that.
This is my real experience of life after quitting my job.. the part no one really talks about.
Life After Quitting My Job Isn’t What I Expected
To say I’ve been feeling my absolute best is an understatement.
I’ve taken this time to get back to myself, to reconnect, to pour into me, and to fall back in love with every part of who I am. And it’s been a journey.
(Yes, I love turning everything into a journey lol.)
I knew that with all this free time that I have now, I needed to get back to my blog. To start writing again about what I’m going through, my life experiences, and what I’m learning along the way.
But if I’m being honest… I haven’t felt “motivated” or “inspired” to write.
And I didn’t understand why.
This is something I didn’t expect when it came to life after quitting my job.. this feeling of being a little lost, unmotivated, and unsure of what to do next.
Why I Haven’t Felt Motivated or Inspired
I think it’s because I’ve been putting too much pressure on myself and especially on this blog.
Or maybe it’s because I want every post to be perfect for whoever reads it… so I never even start.
Something I realized is that before, I was trying to be too intentional with what I was writing. I was trying to sound “preachy,” like I had everything figured out so I could help and inspire the next person.
But the truth is…
I don’t have my life figured out.
And I think that fear.. the fear of not knowing what’s going to happen next has been holding me back.
So it shows up as “lack of motivation” or “feeling uninspired,” but really… it’s just fear.
Finding Myself in the In-Between Phase
When I created this space, my intention was simple: to help others who are going through similar journeys feel less alone while trying to figure life out.
And that is still 1000% my intention for this little corner of the internet.
But yeah, life is hard.
My 30s have been the most confusing, painful, chaotic, depressing, messy years of my life…
but also the most beautiful and rewarding chapter I’m still living through.
I’ve grown.
I’ve learned.
I’ve survived.
And now… I just want to live.
Like, fully live life and experience all of it. The good, the bad, and everything in between.
Mentally, emotionally, physically, and spiritually… I feel different.
Like I’m starting to fall back in love with my own essence.
There’s a part of me that wants to come out; to fully express, explore, and just be.
And I think I’m ready to share that here.
The in-between.
That space where you’re no longer who you used to be… but you’re not quite where you’re meant to be yet.
That space can feel uncomfortable, but it’s also where the magic happens.
Learning to Trust Life After Quitting My Job
I’m learning that life after quitting my job isn’t about having everything figured out.
It’s about trusting myself through the unknown.
I don’t want to waste any more of my time or energy doing things that don’t feel meaningful or nourishing.
I’m ready to pour back into myself.
I’m ready to fall back in love with life.
And that’s what I’m going to start sharing here. What this phase looks and feels like for me… even on the days when I have no idea what I’m doing.
So yeah… sit back and enjoy the ride.
Tomorrow isn’t promised.
And I think it’s time we start appreciating life a little more because honestly, we’re not getting any younger.
I’m not even sure where I was going with this post, but hey… it’s going live anyway.
Messy, real, and a little all over the place.
Because that’s me.
A beautiful mess.. and I’m not going to feel shame for it.
Happy New Moon in Aries 🌑✨
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